Black Swan

I play the role the "white swan" in this relationship and my boyfriend plays the "black swan." I’m the innocent one who wants the best for us and he is the person with this dark past and evil wicked ways who brings drama to our future. I chose the movie the Black Swan because number one it’s my favorite movie. Hello, Natalie Portman. (Air High Five) back to my toxic relationship. All my friends and family constantly tell me to leave him especially after every fight we have that leaves me in tears.  I can honestly say after three long years we have called it quits and I’m not happy we broke up I’ve spent days probably weeks wondering if this breakup was my fault or maybe it was the fact he relapsed and had to be taken back to rehab for overdosing. Either way he needed me but I left because I couldn’t be with someone and watch them slowly die inside from a substance that he once took to ease his pain was now creating him pain. As I write this I can remember our conversation like it was yesterday he would say, “Kam instead of Kim because he was from Massachusetts and they had a cute way of talking” he use to pinky promise me that he would get clean and we would get married that following year and it would be an outside wedding with a live band playing at our reception something I always wanted. Our relationship ended in 2012 we never made it to the alter. I’ve been busy with life and got side tracked stop blogging for a while but I’m back.